As always, life continues to have a way of happening. I’m finishing up my fourth week at my new agency job and things are going well. It’s becoming more apparent to me everyday how valuable my experience in my last two jobs has been despite the fact I couldn’t stand either of them by the time I’ve left.

I think this new job was a good move and one where I should be able to succeed. My biggest challenge is going to be in my attention to detail, which has often lacked in the past. I need to make it a point not o fall into bad habits of wasting time; something I can myself falling into if I’m not careful again.

Life as a parent continues to sink in; which is a far cry from the first couple of months of Nate’s life. I don’t care how much you read prior to the birth of your child, nothing can prepare you for the reality of it. It’s tough, especially when you are dealing with a fussy baby as the constant attention they need without any reciprocal interaction gets extremely frustrating. But as soon as they start to smile and coo, everything change.

Prior to Nate’s birth, I wrote a lot about how I needed this to completely alter my view on life. What I wasn’t prepared for was the fact that this didn’t happen instantly. I had little reaction when he was born aside from relief. I didn’t break-down crying and my heart didn’t burst with love. These things take time and I’m pleased to report have become to happen.

I’m also finally starting to deal with my problems in handling change. I’ve always has a penchant for living in the past and looking back at what I’ve lost instead of seeing the potential and beauty that lies ahead. It has always been a problem for me. It’s selfish is what it is and it is something I can no longer be.

The fact I need to live in the moment can no longer be lost on me. Especially as the relative nature of life makes these moments even more fleeting. I’ll get there; I just need to be cognizant of it.